Before
I lived, I had this dream that I was going to be born in January, 1995 in
Carolina, Puerto Rico. I was going to be
born in the UPR Hospital aka the “matadero” which is a Spanish word for
slaughterhouse. I remember that dream
like if it was yesterday. Thinking of it
now, it is like having a dejavu of my present life. I have these pictures in my mind which I can
easily describe for you and that I am going to do it so you can get to know
more about my past.
As
you already know, before I was born, I had a life. These memories are like a mirror of my actual
life. Another of those dreams showed me that I was going to have a successful
in life, goals in which I am still working to achieve them, but because I
already lived it, I know I already achieved them. For example I dreamed that in my childhood I
was going to be a mature kid. The reason
that I considered myself a mature was because I was surrounded by adults my
whole life. This dream showed me how I
was going to achieve getting accepted in the University of Puerto Rico, Río
Piedras.
They
called me José A. Rohena Calzada. Why
José? Because my grandfather’s father name was José and my dad was also named
José. This dream showed me how I was
going to pass through hard times to become a better person. How I had to grow from separated parents. How I had to dwell, when they fixed their
relationship problems, losing my father from cancer and then 3 months later my
grandfather. My grandfather was the man who
taught me values with his example, he was the man who raised me. My father, I got to know him well when he
came back to restore the time he wasn’t with me, I was 15 years old. What I learned from him what his positive
attitudes even in the worst times. Those
two men are extremely important in my life because they both showed me how to
love and how to care about others.
This dream showed me how I had the courage to continue
fighting for my goals, not only for me, but for them, especially for my mom
because I am the only man left in her life. This had a meaning for me which the
dream never explained to me and which I am now discovering. That is, mutually, my mother and I be there
for each other no matter what for ever and ever.